this is hard. i think it's even harder to say in front of you.
two words. three syllables.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm so-rry
i know we do not exactly see each other eye to eye. i judged your character and methods of living. i called you a liar, a drama queen and a cheater behind your back. i'm sorry for not listening when you wanted to speak, for placing you in a less important list among all things. i'm sorry.
gosh! i'm crying.
i'm sorry....mother.
xoxo,
DYAN
i've thought hard about this and i think i still want to ask for forgiveness. when i talk about people i need to be saying my apology to...this name came up. always, without a fail.
i'm sorry God.
i'm sorry for failing you. for not trying hard enough to live by your example. i'm sorry for my blatant lies to make myself feel better, for lying to get ahead of others, for sinful thoughts and deeds. i'm sorry for everything.
i'm sorry.
i really am.
xoxo,
DYAN
i was making a list of the 26 people i think i've done something wrog with and i only came up with less than 15. gaaahh!!!! i'm not really a saint...or maybe i hurt more random people than people i actually care about so yay! for that. i just realize now that maybe i'm not as bad as i think i am. i mean the list would definitely say something about me or something like that....huurrrrrr!!!
so anyway, i think i'm going to start with person #1? i know it's so anti climactic but i'll really try...if it comes short then i'll have you know right now that i'm actually ten fold sorrier to some people on my list.
xoxo,
bitterbiter
p.s. i was gonna post this actually in tumblr but it's too public for my liking...so i might as well use this blog for now...
Yep, in three days time, i'll be turning 26. gahhhh!!! i feel so old. and it also feel stupid typing this again because i tried posting using safari and it gone haywire on me. gosh! i couldn't even log in! safari hates posterous! anyway, before i digress further, i'd say i'm not a fan of birthday celebrations. not that i have many...birthdays are nothing but ordinary days, HOWEVER i am very much inclined to spend it with friends then i'd sulk afterwards for no apparent reason at all. OKAY, fine. i'm being melodramatic every birthday because i'm feeling non-important to important people in my life. well, yeah you get the drift...i don't want to elaborate more and drip snot on my keyboard but yeah, this post is about birthdays...
almost every september 16, i make birthday poems and sensible stuff that i have (supposed) learned in my life or my reflections about the past.
this year, i'm making it a bit different. i'd be posting my apologies to 26 people whom i think i have wronged so badly. well, i admit, i get necessarily bad but it doesn't mean to say i'm not sorry for them. i don't know if 26 is a lot or less, but let's see...
i'm not washing my hands with anything and i suppose i'd start out with #26 soon.
xoxo,
bitterbiter <3
The last entry was about free days and I'm back now with the same topic. free days! I am bored.
GAHHHH!!!
I almost forgot this blog even existed.
Well...
I am on leave! I am very ecstatic!!!! :D I filed for leave because I want to attend a friend's wedding but in the end, I didn't go because I wasn't able to book a flight on short notice. Anyhow, I love free days. I feel so burned out from work already so I think I need this.
And I'm lazier than ever. Knowing I have a few free days ahead of me makes me more lazy than usual. UGH.
But I'm loving it.
:)
*enter Bruno Mar's THE LAZY SONG*
I'm watching a korean drama called "Mary Stayed Out All Night". I'm watching it because I like Jang Geun Suk (did I spell his name right?) and Moon Geun Young...but I'm having second thoughts of acually finishing all episodes because it's downright boring. MGY is cute and good actress however I am failing to see the chemistry between the two lead characters. It felt like it lacked depth. Well...
After lunch I'm gonna do some errands then maybe watch Three Idiots which I've heard have very good reviews.
I hope I can endure this kdrama. Or maybe press stop altogether and remove the disc from the player.
Don't you miss mix tapes?
I do.
But these days, it's no longer mix tapes, it's (I believe) called 'playlist'.
But before that there were CD's burned (as parallel to mix tapes.)
Now it's so accessible. Everything is accessible. It's so easy to share music for free, download music illegally.
I bet artists whose music is being pirated, wished cassette tapes are still in-demand.
I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!
This is my new Friday theme song. Friday being my day off from work. I usually start my week on Saturdays and ends on Thursday morning...But Friday is the day I'm mostly free. So, yeah. :)
